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– Sunday, May 30

Well, I arrived in Massachusetts today.  My leaving Raleigh was quite an event.  I – the unemotional, even-keeled, level-headed, down-to-earth Valerie – started crying before we left the house.  I guess everything seemed to be kind of happening at once.  I felt overwhelmed by the prospect of going to another state alone, where I don’t know anyone except though email and maybe a phone call.

I calmed down pretty easily before we got to the airport.  When we got there I entered the e-Ticket line, thinking I could hand the people there my receipt, get my boarding pass, and be on my way.  Yeah, right.  I was informed that the travel agency had not paid for my ticket.  It cost us $111 more than it would have been, since dad had to pay for it right there.  My internship program was supposed to spend up to $500 on relocation, and now instead of a $407 ticket, we had a $518 one.  I don’t know what happened yet, so I don’t know whose fault that whole mix-up was.

Either way, I started crying once again.  (I guess I was making up for all that time I was so calm and optimistic about everything.)  I was glad my whole family was there.  My little siblings are so sensitive whenever I’m upset.  I had a whole crowd of 5 little sisters, my little brother, and two neighbor kids hugging me (not to mention mom and dad).  I sure felt loved :-).  Actually, another lady in the airport started crying because she thought my family looked so sweet.  We got a group picture while I still had some tears in my eyes, then I headed off to my gate.  Once I got on my plane, I struck up a conversation with the lady in the seat next to me.  It really helped to get my mind on something else.  My flight left at 3:10.

At 4:50, I got to Hartford, Connecticut (which is a lot closer to Amherst than Boston). I used a service phone to call my shuttle, then I called home.  Mom picked up the phone and told me she’d cried all the way back to the car after seeing me walk off alone.  I had the chance to tell her that everything was going smoothly and I was ok.  This girl from California who goes to school in Northampton was using the same shuttle.  She was really talkative, and she chatted with the shuttle driver the whole way.

I noticed some differences between NC and MA on the way.  For instance, instead of the pine trees of NC, they have almost all deciduous trees here.  And I noticed that baseball is a big thing here.  The shuttle driver and the girl from California talked for 45 minutes about different teams and who’s rivals with whom and what this team is doing at that time.  I didn’t understand their talk much more than I get the football talk at home.  It was interesting anyway to hear them talk about which seat was best (the CA girl liked to sit high up so she could watch the pitcher).  Oh, and how about the weather!  At home in Raleigh I’ve been sweating like crazy in that muggy 90-degree weather.  Here it’s more like late fall weather.  The high is usually in the 70’s and the low in the 50’s.  Right now the room I’m renting feels like 55.

When I got to my house at 7:00, I met my housemates, Robin and Brendan.  They showed me around and then we had some dinner.  They are vegetarians, so we had some home-grown salad with veggie burgers.  I love it, because I like health food a lot.  After dinner we walked downtown for some ice-cream at a local place called Bart’s.  It’s cool that I can walk just about anywhere.

 

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Monday, May 31

Well, not a whole lot has happened since last night.  I slept well, though it was a bit cold, so I piled up the blankets!  I got up at 8:30 and had some breakfast, and now here I am.  Brendan is going to show me the way into campus from here.

Brendan showed me how to walk into campus today.  It was a kinda hard to remember because he uses this shortcut that goes through a neighborhood.  It’s a pretty long walk, and I was warmed up quickly (the high is in the 70’s here, but inside the house is between the 50’s and 60’s).  Man, UMass has some HUGE buildings!  The science research building is like a skyscraper in downtown Raleigh.  It’s pretty intimidating.  25,000 students go to this university.  Twenty-five thousand!  That’s insane!  They have huge dorms that look like major apartments or big hotels.  They certainly make the biggest dorm on Western’s campus (Scott) look tiny.

The Computer Science department has their own building.  That’s a lot more than I can say for Western’s CS department – there are 3 rooms to teach and maybe 6 offices.  Brendan’s into Robotics, so he brought me to his lab.  The robotics lab at UMass is working on independent movement of arms and hands mostly.  I learned about “degrees of freedom” which indicate how much dexterity a certain appendage has.  For instance, your arm has 7 degrees of freedom.  Your upper arm can go up and down, forward and backward, and rotate.  That’s 3 degrees.  Your elbow can only bend in one direction.  That’s a total of 4 degrees.  Then your wrist can go up and down, side to side, and rotate.  All of that adds up to 7 degrees of freedom.  To construct a robot arm that mimics a human arm, you have to give it the same 7 degrees of freedom.  That’s not even bringing the human hand into play.  I’m guessing your hand has about 20 degrees of freedom, 4 for each finger including the thumb.  Most of the robots in the lab only had 2 fingers and a thumb.  http://www.robotics.utexas.edu/rrg/learn_more/low_ed/dof/ ßThat’s more info on degrees of freedom if you’re curious.

After we got back from campus, Brendan and Robin decided they wanted to go rock climbing.  They invited me along with them, so I changed clothes, grabbed my bug repellant and sunscreen and came along.  They apparently really like the outdoors, so they have a supply of climbing materials and everything.  We parked in a small neighborhood and hiked into the woods.  I noticed a lot of people out with their families.  There was one mother planting flowers with her son, and some sisters playing on a hammock.  I guess they really appreciate the warmer weather since it gets so horridly cold here in the winter.  I’ve seen a lot of people at work in their gardens in my neighborhood.  I heard that there’s an annual “plant exchange,” where the neighbors have a cookout and trade plants for their gardens!

          Anyway, it was quite a hike to the rock face.  I felt pretty out of shape, because I was panting when I got there.  When we got to the climbing spot (which wasn’t higher than a climbing wall) I sat down to relax a bit.  Then multitudes of monster mosquitoes materialized and fought fiercely for my feet.  Ok, well technically they battled over my legs, but that alliteration was too fun to give up :-).  That’s when I decided I should bring out the bug spray.  Robin had tried this natural stuff that smelled of citronella, but it wasn’t working.  She gave in pretty soon and used mine.

          Meanwhile, Brendan climbed up behind the rock and set up the rope.  He was the first one to climb up, and he scampered up pretty easily like a monkey or something.  I was next.  It was hard as anything to get off the ground!  Somehow there just didn’t seem to be any good footholds.  Finally, they suggested that I start on a ledge, and that helped me out.  I’ve never done climbing like that – only a climbing wall a couple of times and the spire at Western.  Also there was this one time I did a weird sort of climbing with Summer Ventures, where the rock is really sloped and you lay on your belly and push yourself up with your hands like a seal or something.  That was strange.  Anyway, this sort of climbing really, really, really hurts your fingers.  Rocks are rough!  My poor fingers were peeling at the end.  And the footholds are obviously not so obvious.  Haha I like how I said that.  What I mean is that on a climbing wall, it’s either flat, or there’s a knob or handle or something to grab onto and stand on.  But here, you have to judge for yourself whether you like your handhold or foothold.  And man, my arms hurt.  Mom and I kid about my not having “upper body strength” (hee hee), but I have to admit, it sure is true.  I’ve got these skinny little (long but skinny) arms and I can’t pull myself up a rock wall.  As long as I could use my legs I was fine, but if I didn’t have a good place to stand, I would slip right off the wall.  Well, after all that, I just couldn’t get to the top.  I got maybe halfway at the best.  I tried my hardest, and I slipped up lots of times and came right back.  However, it was too much for me.  Oh well.  Much fun was had anyway.

After Robin climbed (she got further than me, but couldn’t go all the way), I went around the wall with Brendan to see how the rope was tied in.  It was kinda scary, but not that bad standing near the edge.  I hugged a tree and looked down at my stuff…then remembered I’d left my camera down there!  Well, Brendan and Robin worked out this plan to get my camera up.  They used one of the ropes and tied the camera in its case to the rope, then hauled it up.  I got a picture of Robin from the top of the rock :-).

And, that was Monday.

 

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– Tuesday, June 1 –

Of course, all this time, during all the fun and games I realized that I was here for a reason.  I had emailed Dr. Clarke (my mentor) on Saturday, asking for some specifics on my “internship.”  Well, I thought she may have been out during Memorial Day weekend.  So I expected to get some information today.

I woke up at 9:30 and called the LASER lab using the number that was posted online.  The secretary, Leslie, picked up the phone and told me that Lori Clarke was still out and wouldn’t be back until Thursday!  She took my phone number and said she’d call me back when she found out more.

A couple minutes after I hung up, the phone rang again.  It was Leslie again; she told me that Rachel Smith (the girl who had been helping me to find my housing) would be able to help me settle in at the lab.  The secretary told me to come in when I could and I would get a cubicle and everything.

After I got ready for the day, I started on the trek to the lab.  I must admit, I’m not always the best with directions.  I did pretty well overall, but I forgot a turn one time on the shortcut.  Thankfully I found my way.  It’s a pretty walk.  I like all the houses around here.  A lot of them are old-fashioned, and lots of people have beautiful flower gardens.  So, even while I was getting lost, I appreciated the scenery!  :-)

Thankfully I already knew where LASER (“Laboratory for Advanced Software Engineering Research.” Now doesn’t that sound important?) was, because Brendan brought me up there on my first walk to the CS building.  It’s basically located in a wing on the third floor.  The main lab is on the end of the hall.  I crept in there and asked for Rachel.  I was so glad to meet her in person.  Earlier, when our only contact was email, she had seen my signature at the end of my emails.  She asked whether I was a Christian, told me about the church she goes to and even offered me rides to church if I needed them.  It was just cool to finally say hi to the only person I “knew” (if only by email) in Massachusetts.  Rachel then proceeded to introduce me to all of the other lab people.  Three of them are international students, and I couldn’t really remember their names that well.  One of them was Bin and another was Jin Bin or something like that (online it says his name is Jianbin).  I also met Jamie (Rachel’s fiancé) and Sandy (the lab assistant basically – if something goes wrong with your computer you ask him for help).  Everyone smiled and was really nice to me, but I was pretty overwhelmed meeting all of them at once.  Then I went to my own cubicle which was in a separate room.  Across from me was Yao, a girl from China.  We had some difficulty talking (she still has some problems with English), but we tried our best.

Next, Rachel sat down with me and asked if I had any questions.  Well, I wanted to know what happens in this lab, and what would I be doing?  Rachel explained to me what she does – she looks for ways to represent properties of a system.  The example she used was an elevator.  One property of an elevator system is: “if you push the close door button, the doors will close.”  The problem with this sort of statement is that it’s unclear.  There are a lot of possible interpretations of that statement.  For instance, does pushing the button mean the doors will close immediately, without stopping for a person who may be entering the elevator at that moment?  Does it mean that the doors will close someday, maybe after the elevator changes floors?  Does it mean that if you get impatient and push the button repeatedly, the doors will close repeatedly?  Does it mean that the doors can’t close unless you push the button?

There are already formal ways (one is called Linear Time Logic) of representing this sort of statement with more precision, but the problem is that these representations aren’t easy for your average person to understand.  And if a system gets to be really huge, even someone who understands Linear Time Logic would have trouble seeing if the property is correct.  Rachel has been working on a tool called PROPEL (Property Elucidator) that uses graphical representations (called FSA, “finite-state automata”) alongside English phrases (called DNL, “disciplined natural language”) to help average people to represent properties.  The hope is that there will be more understandability without loss of precision.  http://laser.cs.umass.edu/tools/propel.html

Once Rachel finished describing her work in the lab, she brought me around to help me get registered.  That way I got an account on the LASER network so I could sign in on my computer and use a local email account.

Rachel handed me a stack of papers and told me to read them and take notes and ask people in the lab if I didn’t understand anything.  This was so that I could get an idea of what everyone was up to.  The papers weren’t that hard to understand on a basic level, but they were extremely dry.  I must admit, I had a hard time staying awake while I read them.  My room is empty except for Yao’s cubicle, and it was completely silent.  I can’t ever focus in a silent environment.  To keep myself awake I started drawing a German shepherd from my purse.  Then I alternated sketching with reading and taking notes.  When I finished the shepherd, I looked up “cat” on Google Images and drew a kitten hanging onto the end of a rope and wrote “Hang in there!”  This has always been my way of coping with a boring situation – start drawing.  I draw in class because it keeps my mind awake and active so that I can hear the important parts of the lecture and write them down.  Some people think it means I’m not paying attention, but I’m usually able to pay better attention when I’m sketching.

After a while of slowly working my way through the papers, I headed on home.  I was excited because I already had some plans for the night.  I had emailed the Navigators, a campus ministry up here, and I got an invitation to dinner at one of the students’ apartments.  I called Janet Lenze, who is the wife of the Navigators leader, Don, and asked if she could bring me to the dinner.  I didn’t know how to give directions to this house, so I asked Robin to tell her how to get here.  Janet came by a little before 6:00, and after I met her we left for the dinner.  On the way there we picked up a girl named Allie who was walking to the dinner. 

When we got into the apartment, the first thing I noticed was a red guitar in a stand by the wall (see mom, there are people with guitars up here!).  I met the other girls: Claire, Beth, and Sarah (there were 6 people total, including me).  They all asked me lots of questions about my life and my family.  They were amazed that I would be brave enough to go alone somewhere where I didn’t know anybody.  I spent so much of dinner talking that it took me a long time to finish.  Dinner was exquisite, by the way.  There was soup with butternut squash and potatoes and this spice that is apparently more expensive than gold.  (I have been informed by my great aunt Ann that this spice is called saffron.)  We also had homemade bread and spinach salad.  We ate it all by candlelight too!  It seems like people are into gourmet food up here.  I heard them talking about these fancy food terms that I haven’t heard of.  Without fail, baseball came up once again.  Allie was saying that she didn’t have cable at her apartment and that she “missed her Red Sox.”  Of course I wondered why she loved her red socks so much and what they had to do with cable.  Ah, ignorant me.

After dinner, we discussed whether or not we wanted to watch a movie (and I played around on the guitar a bit).  We finally agreed to watch John Grisham’s The Client.  It was pretty suspenseful.  I liked it.  I got back home around 11:00 and went to bed after reading more of To Kill a Mockingbird.  Somehow I was never assigned that book in school, so I decided to pick it up.  I like it a lot!

 

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Wednesday, June 2

Today I woke up at 9:30 again.  I decided I didn’t see any point in going to the lab until I knew I had some clear questions to ask.  So I stayed at the house and ate breakfast and lunch at the same time (Winnie the Pooh would call this “brunchfast” :-) ).  I had Nutella on toast along with some leftover dinner.  While I ate, I studied Rachel’s paper on PROPEL and wrote down specific questions that would help to make it clearer.  I also tried outlining the paper by summarizing each paragraph in the margin beside it.

I left for the lab at 12:15 and got there at 12:45, while people were still out to lunch.  I started looking more closely at a paper about FLAVERS, another project that people at LASER are working on.  Thankfully, I thought to bring my CD’s and it was much easier to focus.  This project is not as easy to understand, but I tried to get a general idea of what the purpose of FLAVERS was.  While PROPEL helps people to express properties, FLAVERS examines properties and verifies whether they hold or not.  I’m still not fully clear on that.

Rachel popped in a while later to see what I was up to.  I asked her for a demo, so we went into the lab and she showed me her PowerPoint presentation.  I stopped her at different times to ask questions, but in general it wasn’t that hard to understand what she was explaining.  After the PowerPoint, Rachel showed me how the program actually works.  We went through an example involving an elevator (who would’ve guessed).  She said that I was catching on pretty quickly.  I do think I’m getting the hang of defining properties – as long as I’m not dealing with the diagrams.  So far the English part helps a lot to clarify what I’m saying.  Which is a good sign, because that’s the purpose of the program all along!

Once we finished the demo, we went back to Rachel’s cubicle and she loaned me a CD of Australian people singing songs from a musical production of the Secret Garden.  Yeah, it’s just the slightest bit random.  I liked it, though.  The only thing that bothered me was that Dickon, who is supposed to be a 12-year-old kid, is played by a 30-year-old man.  Yeah, it’s slightly strange.  I guess there aren’t enough children in theatre.

I spent the rest of the afternoon reviewing the rest of the papers, focusing mostly on the two about FLAVERS and a language called Little JIL.  By the time I felt like I sufficiently understood these papers to ask questions, it was 5:00, and almost time to leave.

I’m trying to do one drawing a day now, so my cubicle will be full of sketches by the end.  So far, I’ve done that German Shepherd, and a cat hanging on the end of a rope.  Today I drew an eagle in flight and wrote part of Isaiah 40:30-31 – “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”  I only wrote “They will soar on wings like eagles.”  So far, this is my favorite drawing, so I posted it in the most conspicuous spot :-).

 

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Thursday, June 3

Today I tried to get in the lab earlier than before.  Instead of waiting till lunchtime to head in, I left here around 9:15 and got in at quarter to ten.  Actually, hardly anyone was there at that time, but it gave me more time to review the papers.  Once again, I was prepared with CDs, so my work wasn’t so tedious as before.

I forgot to mention that yesterday a man came to my cubicle and introduced himself as George.  He is one of the people in charge, along with Lori Clarke.  He came in yesterday and made sure I understood how the lab works.  He assured me that we were not on a clock schedule and I shouldn’t have to worry about being in the lab from 9 to 5.  Nice.

Anyway, George (I feel so weird to call my superiors by their first names, but I don’t remember his last name, and that’s what all the other students call him), as I was saying, George was walking past my room today, and through my headphones I heard him say, “Yes, she’s in here.”  I took off my headphones, and George introduced me to my mentor, the legendary Dr. Lori Clarke!  I stood up and shook her hand and she quickly made sure I was settled in ok and everything.  She’s pretty busy because she’s been away at Scotland since Friday or Saturday and she has 300 emails to sort through and tons of meetings.  So I asked if we could make a meeting to discuss my assignment here, and we agreed on 9:30 am Friday.

After talking to Dr. Clarke, I went into the lab to ask for some demos.  They told me it was time for lunch, so I headed outside with them.  Silly me, I hadn’t packed anything but an apple.  Rachel and Jamie were worried about me.  There wasn’t any bread at the house for me to make a sandwich though, so what was I supposed to do?  Besides, I don’t tend to get that hungry early in the day.  They gave me a couple of Triscuits anyway.

While outside, I met some of the other CS people.  The only person’s name I can remember is Emily, but she did the most talking, so I guess that’s why.  Her parents are hiking the Appalachian Trail.  Apparently they call her only when they need something.  They ask her to send food or shovels or whatever to these remote post offices.  “I’m tired of being the parent!  I wish my grandparents would take care of them!”  Interesting situation there.  She was eating out of a bowl with a four-legged duck painted on the bottom of it.  Her boyfriend made it.  Yep.

          When I came back in, Jamie showed me the demo for FLAVERS.  Like the paper, this was less intuitive than PROPEL, so I had to stop him a lot of times to ask him to clarify.  Mostly I was asking things like: “Why did you do that?”  “How does that change things?”  “Why don’t you do this instead?”  (See, Mr. Felder, I did learn something from your classes! :-) )  Sometimes he had to back up and go to an earlier point in his explanation, but it helped me to see what was going on a little better.  I think this is the kind of thing I’d need more than a couple of hours to really understand though…

          After Jamie, I asked who would be able to give me a demo of Little JIL.  I was recommended to Sandy, the “lab guru.”  Sandy was quite excited to show off Little JIL.  This language is his baby.  He described to me how he came up with the idea for this language a while back in a meeting.  They were modeling a process in another language called JIL.  Everyone was getting annoyed because JIL was really large and cumbersome.  Sandy suddenly had an epiphany (out loud!  He’s not a particularly quiet person :-) ) that he could write a better language in a week.  Of course, he had to meet the challenge.  Needless to say, it took more than a week, but now he has his darling Little JIL.  They’re using this language to model the steps that are followed in hospital processes.  Apparently this hospital is paying LASER to help them find problems in the blood transfusion process as well as the way that emergency rooms are run.  This presentation was easier to understand than the FLAVERS one.  Of course, Sandy’s enthusiasm about his subject helped to make it interesting :-).

          After I experienced these enriching demos, I went back to my cubicle and started drawing my next sketch.  This one was a picture of my right hand holding a pencil.  Since I’m left handed, this wasn’t such a great feat as you may be thinking.  I’m sorry if I disappointed you.  I’ll let you know the day I’m able to draw my left hand with my left hand.  Then I’ll feel like Escher!  Nah, I guess it won’t be complete unless I draw my left hand drawing my left hand drawing that first left hand.  If I ever manage that, I’ll frame it and feel important, except it wasn’t an original idea, so I don’t know if it’s really that impressive.  Oh well.

          While I was absorbed in this hand-drawing, Dr. Clarke asked if I would still be at the lab at 4:30 for a meeting.  I said sure.  I finished up my drawing, and headed to her room at the appointed time.  She was still busy with another meeting, so I just waited outside the room.  Who should come along at that moment but Anastasia, the only other girl in this DMP program with me at UMass.  Anastasia is originally from Russia (in Siberia!), but she goes to school in Alaska.  I bet it feels warm here to her.  Actually, she said the weirdest thing here was the fact that we don’t have a midnight sun.  She’s used to constant daylight in the summer.  Pretty cool.  Anastasia has an accent, but she has wonderful English skills.  She’s a very interesting person to talk with, considering her different background.

          Next, Dr. Clarke (maybe she’d prefer to be called Lori, but as I said, I’m not used to that), George, Anastasia and I all had a meeting.  Dr. Clarke and George asked if we were well settled in our housing arrangements.  Let me tell you, I am thankful for the place I have to stay after hearing about where Anastasia is staying.  She has to share a bathroom and a kitchen with 14 people!  The housing is in a Jewish synagogue, so you can do only kosher cooking.  And her rent is higher than mine!  I only have to share my bathroom with two people, and they go to bed before me and get up before me, so our schedules don’t collide at all.  They cook for me, too.   (Don’t worry mom, I do my share of the dishes.)  Good, vegetarian meals…mmm.  Not to mention I have internet access :-).  Well, thankfully Anastasia is getting a microwave from Dr. Clarke.  After the meeting, I walked with Anastasia to her place, which is on the way back to mine, and bade her farewell (doesn’t that sound nice? I hope it’s correct).

          When I got back to the house, I was glad because I had some plans again for tonight!  But, I think since it’s getting late, that will have to wait for another email…

 

          Here it is!  The Long-Expected Other Email!  Unlike the Long-Expected Party of a certain book, this does not include food.  I would send some if I could do so electronically, but alas, all I can do is make a digital ice-cream cone: <OO  Wow, that’s pitiful.  At least it’s a double scoop.  Or maybe this can pass for a digital pie: [}  Or a coffee mug:  C[_]  Or a tomato: (*)

          Ok, enough of that.

          Well, Thursday night I was planning on going to a Bible study with the Navigators.  If you remember, on Tuesday I met some of the girls from the group for dinner.  When I got back to my room, I called Beth to make sure I could get a ride.  She asked me if I minded being picked up early.  I was fine with that, so she came by a little after 6.

          Beth first brought me to her apartment.  I met her husband, Leon.  Leon is very nice, but fairly quiet, like Beth.  He’s leading the Bible study.  Beth and Leon live in a basement, but it’s more like a full apartment because it has a kitchen, living room, and laundry room.  It’s a nice little place.  They had an awesome picture of a lion on the wall in their living room.  Also, this is even more awesome, they had the most beautiful cat I’ve ever seen.  And get this – her name is Eówyn!  She’s a young Maine Coon that they got from a breeder.  Grey with white paws.  Really, she was a very pretty cat.  Maybe if I get a camera I’ll take a picture of the White Lady of Rohan and put it on my site :-).

          I helped Beth and Leon load the food into the car.  This Bible study includes dinner!  What better way to spend your night than filling up with both physical as well as spiritual food?  We drove to the place where we were meeting, which is a house that Allie is “house-sitting.”  When I came in, I was introduced to Jeff and Andy (wearing an old Back to the Future shirt), who are both apparently CS people too.  Allie, Sarah, and Claire were already there.  We hung out and had some small talk (at some point another guy named Shawn came) while the food was being finished.

          Once again, the food was fairly fancy.  We had make-your-own chicken salad, with hand-grated parmesan.  Mmm  Hey, this is the first time I had meat in almost a week!  I don’t miss it, but maybe I should take some supplements to make sure I’m not missing out on anything by eating vegetarian food.

          After dinner, we started the Bible study.  During the Bible study, I noticed that I was one of the main contributors.  I’ve always liked discussions.  Shawn is kind of a clown, so he joked around a lot.  Jeff is a more intellectual type, and he added lots of philosophical comments.  Leon told us that this summer, we will focus on the parables of Jesus.  I learned that parable comes from two Greek words.  The para- part comes from a word meaning alongside.  The -ble part comes from a word meaning life.  So parables are something that can be juxtaposed with situations in our lives, to help us to see our situation more clearly.  Cool, huh?

          For quite a while, we discussed why Jesus taught in parables.  It seems at first glance that He would use them to make things clearer.  Well, this is pretty quickly disproved by John 4:11-12:

He told them, “The secret of the kingdom of God has been given to you.  But to those on the outside everything is said in parables so that, ‘they may be ever seeing but never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!’”

          Why would Jesus make things more confusing on purpose?  That seems cruel to “those on the outside.”  Well, Jeff suggested that perhaps this was a way of making people need to draw close to Him.  It says that after Jesus told the parable of the Sower, some people stayed after along with the disciples and asked what it meant.  Those who stayed and asked for an explanation received in full what Jesus had for them.  It was a conscious decision to ask for more.  Well, I’d never looked at it that way.  Of course, we mentioned some other points, such as the fact that stories are easier to remember, once you know what they represent.

          After our Bible study, people hung around for a while.  We started joking about Harry Potter, of all things.  Some people were planning on going to see the movie that was coming out this weekend.  Shawn, who had been previously joking around so much, got pretty serious about Harry Potter.  He claimed, and I agree, that our culture makes light of the occult too much.  I did enjoy the first couple books and movies.  Still, I think they just get darker, and closer to the real thing, as the stories progress.  I don’t think someone is a sinner for watching them, but as a personal choice, I’ve decided not to read the rest of the books.  Thankfully, everyone was very civil and mature about this topic that has made some people go so far as to burn the books.  I think that’s going way to far.

          During the whole meeting, it’d been raining and icky outside.  At the end, the sun came out, and what should appear outside but the most gorgeous rainbow I’ve ever seen!  I’ve never seen one as clear or as complete.  There was even a faint second rainbow encircling the first!  You could see the whole spectrum in the brighter rainbow, and the spectrum repeated itself 4 or 5 times in smaller rainbows right below it.  It’s hard to explain, and I’m so sad I didn’t bring my camera.  It was still amazingly beautiful!

 

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– Friday, June 4

          Today was my first LASER meeting.  We all got into a conference room and sat around a long table.  Dr. Clarke and George and another in-charge-type guy sat at the head of the table near the door.  I sat by Anastasia.  The students were beginning their conference as usual by going one by one around the table and explaining what they had been up to this week.  Dr. Clarke stopped them before the second student had finished talking.

          “Wait, we have new people in this room!  Please introduce yourselves and explain what it is you’re working on.”

          The first student began again, and each person gave a brief introduction.